This story, written by Deb from Indiana. Because of my role as a pro-life organizer, I receive stories of people who have had abortions and how it affected them. This story is appropriate for this website because it tells of how God played a part in this woman's recovery after her abortion. [The bracketed words below are my additions.] - Mike Stack
I had an abortion because I was so ashamed of the [promiscuous] life I had been living and couldn't face the judgment I believed would come from my friends and family [when they discovered I was pregnant]. I grew up in church and had been living away from God and my faith. I was so lost.
During my abortion, I felt only the physical pain. I was really good at pushing the emotion pain away. I lived that way for thirteen years. I thought I had done a good job of moving past my abortion until one day when I knew that God was working on my heart to open up to someone about my story. After that I went through [a post-abortion women's Bible study called] "Forgiven and Set Free". I was amazed at what God did for me. I had no idea that I had locked myself in a prison of shame and guilt. I always felt that if people really knew me they would not like me.
Today I am forgiven and truly free. My life has been forever changed and I experience God's love and grace in a way that I could have never imagined.
I long for other women who have been wounded by abortion to experience this same freedom that I dance in today and I am thankful that God would not allow me to continue hiding in the dark but brought me out into the marvelous sunshine of His amazing love.
Indiana, United States
My commentary: I think it is significant to note that God's role in this woman's story is not as punisher, but as healer. - Bill Schaef, Editor